illustrations

new painting

i just finished a painting. it has a lot of meaning to me as it reflects my emotions right now.

time?

just trying to move on...

"almost lover" song

"I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?"

what can you do when someone you really care for can't give you 100% ... and probably never will. the hardest thing is trying to let go.

summer drink

orange juice, pineapple juice, lemon juice and ginger ale. refreshing!

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i'm lost for words...

optimistic

i'm feeling optimistic today. it was a good day :)

a little tired and upset

today i went for a walk to the beach park at around 9pm and coming back home a little after 10. it was a good walk. i guess i just needed to clear my head. it's been a rough day and i'm just upset ... about things. i feel like i'm the only one trying and i feel exhausted after a while. some things are just not meant to be. i don't like this feeling.

i make art when i feel upset. this artwork first was a painting but i traced over it and color it digitally with photoshop.

4th of july

BBQ at edmonds beach park

4x4 painting

cooking and baking

i've been cooking and baking a lot lately.

new paintings

Photobucket Album

new addiction...

"I can’t feel my senses I just feel the cold

All colors seem to fade away I can’t reach my soul

I would stop running If I knew there was a chance

It tears me apart to sacrifice it all

But I’m forced to let go

Tell me I’m frozen But what can I do?

Can’t tell the reasons I did it for you"

i never thought that i would be into a dutch gothic rock band, within temptation ... but i'm now addicted to it (which is really strange. last month i was just in love with nedelle, completely different style). i've only listened to the heart of everything album and i love every songs, especially forgiven. her voice is hauntingly beautiful.

bis on main...

went to bis on main tonight. it was great. i had summer squash, lobster and wild mushroom risotto. it was really really good...lemony & buttery yummm :P what could be better than a good meal with a great company :) the walk back in the mist of rain wasn't bad either :)

(photo from tastespotting.com)

another day...

how many more times will it take for me to get over it? i can't stand people who don't keep their words.

random thoughts...

"the body is a fragile thing but the heart can hold onto something forever."

i remember reading this from "spilling open" by sabrina ward harrison. is it true that when you're faced with pain, you should go through it not around it? i feel confused, lost and empty inside. wondering...what had just happened? silence can hurt you but what if expressing it doesn't keep you safe either.

every hour on the hour...

"father and son" (2006) fountain by louis bourgeois at olympic sculpture park. stopped by today during break from school. (i love how the park is just a few minutes away from school.) every hour on the hour, the spray of the fountain shifts from covering one figure to covering the other. i love the message behind it. basically, one of the figures is always inaccessible (physically, emotionally, metaphorically) by the other. "ultimately, father and son conveys a deeply humanistic message of understanding, yearning and love."

in the rain...

i did a quick painting today in my tiny little sketchbook while looking out at "the eagle" in olympic sculpture park. it rains a little when i started but then it cleared up when i am about to finish. the clouds in the sky was so pretty.

letting go...

sometimes the best thing you can do is to just let go.