new addiction...

"I can’t feel my senses I just feel the cold

All colors seem to fade away I can’t reach my soul

I would stop running If I knew there was a chance

It tears me apart to sacrifice it all

But I’m forced to let go

Tell me I’m frozen But what can I do?

Can’t tell the reasons I did it for you"

i never thought that i would be into a dutch gothic rock band, within temptation ... but i'm now addicted to it (which is really strange. last month i was just in love with nedelle, completely different style). i've only listened to the heart of everything album and i love every songs, especially forgiven. her voice is hauntingly beautiful.

bis on main...

went to bis on main tonight. it was great. i had summer squash, lobster and wild mushroom risotto. it was really really good...lemony & buttery yummm :P what could be better than a good meal with a great company :) the walk back in the mist of rain wasn't bad either :)

(photo from tastespotting.com)

another day...

how many more times will it take for me to get over it? i can't stand people who don't keep their words.

random thoughts...

"the body is a fragile thing but the heart can hold onto something forever."

i remember reading this from "spilling open" by sabrina ward harrison. is it true that when you're faced with pain, you should go through it not around it? i feel confused, lost and empty inside. wondering...what had just happened? silence can hurt you but what if expressing it doesn't keep you safe either.

every hour on the hour...

"father and son" (2006) fountain by louis bourgeois at olympic sculpture park. stopped by today during break from school. (i love how the park is just a few minutes away from school.) every hour on the hour, the spray of the fountain shifts from covering one figure to covering the other. i love the message behind it. basically, one of the figures is always inaccessible (physically, emotionally, metaphorically) by the other. "ultimately, father and son conveys a deeply humanistic message of understanding, yearning and love."

in the rain...

i did a quick painting today in my tiny little sketchbook while looking out at "the eagle" in olympic sculpture park. it rains a little when i started but then it cleared up when i am about to finish. the clouds in the sky was so pretty.

letting go...

sometimes the best thing you can do is to just let go.